And so following on down from Matildas grave we had to search for Stormys grave next. It was difficult because all of the markers were gone, his statue, flowers, buddleja, wheelbarrow all gone. We found material and Tilly kept digging all around as we expected to find the bones. But we didn't. Tilly kept going along the material then he said he ( Read more... )

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Trigger Warning Susie died March 4th 2013 which was a bit of a shock to find out on Saturday as I thought it was last year, not 4 years ago. So much destruction and loss, illness I can't believe I had the date so wrong. Susie was bones, we found what we could. Just a stringy length of material (either a nightie or a t-shirt) to guide us. At first ( Read more... )

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Some 5-6 weeks ago the estate told me that the fence would be coming out. We had no choice but to exhume Tobacco who was buried in a box. Unfortunately once the box started to be dug up Tilly found it had shattered at the base so Tobacco had to be transferred to another box. At the time I thought this was terrible. I had No idea ( Read more... )

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When I posted the photo of Susie's skeletal remains on fb on Friday I was so angry and upset. I was sitting on the other side of the fence, in what Was my garden, looking at the remains of Susie in the box at my feet, watching poor Tilly dig as I tried to sift for missed bones, our failed as then attempt to find Stormys grave, smelling the graves, ( Read more... )

The estate will be taking the trees down, they will be clearing the area that was my garden for the paddock, they may or may not take the bloody wall down - all of which directly affect the graves. Massive chance of structural damage to my home if they take the wall down because it's attached! Until today the last fence post and entire section was ( Read more... )

Well I'm bloody glad we decided to exhume the cats because the estate have just belted a huge stake through what was Susie's grave. I never saw that one coming in my fears. I could hear them (since obviously they're now 3-4 yards away from the door) so turned the radio down to listen... they're Still undecided over the wall! And they couldn't get ( Read more... )

It is a very strange feeling that despite physically handling the bones of my cats yesterday I actually woke feeling OK this morning. Actually peaceful, serene. There was No fear of "What's the estate done this morning?", no fear of seeing their remains flung over the field. I've lost so much this year I think that would have broken me. Today we ( Read more... )

Wednesday 12th April I woke to the shuddering realisation my garden fence was gone and my garden was going. 2-3 hours later I discovered by shock that the boundary was not what they said and the garden was Halved at the top , the fence posts about to go in and the cats graves were beyond my boundary and no longer in my garden. Not a promise has ( Read more... )